"To be free means letting go of struggle. If you’re struggling you cannot be free: if you’re free you don’t struggle. (Struggling is when you want to express your energy. Freedom is when we express our mutual energies.) The ultimate purpose of life on earth is that matter is irradiated with light, and light becomes substantiated in physical forms. For those who have set their foot on the path of light this is all that matters. They may have been given a specific task but the purpose is to channel light energy throu the enterprise, not vice versa. Therefore witnessing to the light should always take precedence. Ask the energy to supply your needs, ask with all your intensity yet without struggling. Then walk forth joyfully expecting miracles.
"Where problems exist there are debts which must be paid. Where debts exist there are attitudes which must be looked at. The only way to resolve such things is to bring light into the anguish that has created the problem. And that means letting go of your desired solution (The chances are The Powers That Be are planning something more profound.) So don’t know the answers, don’t see the solution.
"Immerse yourself in the transforming power of love. PS. Don’t confuse necessary hard work with struggle, and don’t mistake bewildering circumstances for struggle. If you find yourself overwhelmed use discernment to stay detached. Salmon swimming upstream have hard and confusing work, but a natural force empowers them. That natural force is given you to find. Don’t hold on to power, give it, use it, share it. Let the inner you (your natural force) speak."
1992/11/07
The great spiral of existence
"The years roll by, the seasons change, you grow old, others are born, empires rise and fall.
The world turns but this signifies little to us in spirit. What we see is the throng of spirits released from the pull of earth grows to swell the universal structure of consciousness drawing humanity towards the focal point of existence, the One, Being, S/He Is.
"Imagine all the letters darting up from this page, held in the dancing light as they form spirals of meaning that weave throu your senses like underwater songs who glow from mountain peaks with all mystical knowledge.
"Is reality what you see – a telephone, a kitchen, a bed? Or is reality the power these objects give you to transform yourself? With a phone you can communicate anywhere in the world – in a kitchen you transform your energies with nourishment – in a bed you encounter deeper realities in love-making and sleep.
"For us the whole of life is magical and vivid as sunrise. We are no longer tied to the world of external form. You can be one of us if you let your energy be transmuted into the liquid gold of spiritual reality. Let your words become luminous with subtle energy. Live in the reality of shared love. Let wordless song be your medium of language.
"Live, Love. Dance, Shine. Soar, Sparkle. Grow, Calm. Explode into Focus."
The world turns but this signifies little to us in spirit. What we see is the throng of spirits released from the pull of earth grows to swell the universal structure of consciousness drawing humanity towards the focal point of existence, the One, Being, S/He Is.
"Imagine all the letters darting up from this page, held in the dancing light as they form spirals of meaning that weave throu your senses like underwater songs who glow from mountain peaks with all mystical knowledge.
"Is reality what you see – a telephone, a kitchen, a bed? Or is reality the power these objects give you to transform yourself? With a phone you can communicate anywhere in the world – in a kitchen you transform your energies with nourishment – in a bed you encounter deeper realities in love-making and sleep.
"For us the whole of life is magical and vivid as sunrise. We are no longer tied to the world of external form. You can be one of us if you let your energy be transmuted into the liquid gold of spiritual reality. Let your words become luminous with subtle energy. Live in the reality of shared love. Let wordless song be your medium of language.
"Live, Love. Dance, Shine. Soar, Sparkle. Grow, Calm. Explode into Focus."
1992/11/06
Training for self-hood
"You’re slowly learning that it is not what you do but how you do it that holds spiritual significance. Faithfulness, integrity, holding to inner truth: those are the qualities that confer durability.
"When you cease to be concerned with outer form and pay heed to inner qualities that is when you begin to connect with the energies that suffuse creation. And the strongest of these is love. When you allow yourself to connect with these energies they confer power. That power makes you a co–worker with we who are spiritual entities – it gives you the power to bind and to set free. Like any force for good it can be misused. That is why the apprenticeship is long and hard.
As always there are exceptions, and freak conjunctions within a personality & circumstance may yield the power to someone unfitted, but these are rare indeed. Those who acquire 'fire' illegitimately are often burnt up by it. Handling requires years of spiritual training.
"To be the anvil on which useful implements are forged you must be hardened 7 times above them. Not everyone is made of mettle sufficient to withstand treatment. Rejoice if you have been found worthy, for afterwards the very flames of hell cannot touch you. March the weary road. Trust the ground under your feet. If you were following the sun when it set, do not veer around when it rises again from a different quarter. During the night look only at your feet, a step at a time on the road in front of you. Or rest –you’re perfectly entitled to!– and cherish the relaxation that prepares you for a new dawn."
"When you cease to be concerned with outer form and pay heed to inner qualities that is when you begin to connect with the energies that suffuse creation. And the strongest of these is love. When you allow yourself to connect with these energies they confer power. That power makes you a co–worker with we who are spiritual entities – it gives you the power to bind and to set free. Like any force for good it can be misused. That is why the apprenticeship is long and hard.
As always there are exceptions, and freak conjunctions within a personality & circumstance may yield the power to someone unfitted, but these are rare indeed. Those who acquire 'fire' illegitimately are often burnt up by it. Handling requires years of spiritual training.
"To be the anvil on which useful implements are forged you must be hardened 7 times above them. Not everyone is made of mettle sufficient to withstand treatment. Rejoice if you have been found worthy, for afterwards the very flames of hell cannot touch you. March the weary road. Trust the ground under your feet. If you were following the sun when it set, do not veer around when it rises again from a different quarter. During the night look only at your feet, a step at a time on the road in front of you. Or rest –you’re perfectly entitled to!– and cherish the relaxation that prepares you for a new dawn."
1992/11/03
Being peaceful
"Don’t be at peace, be peace. It is an active quality. Think love as your uppermost thought. Don’t worry about knowledge and busyness, concentrate on feeling and stillness."
1992/11/02
Harmony
"Rest in the Lord, abide patiently in hir, and in due course you shall see yourself raised to reign. You are a co–ruler. The more you know of the divine mind the higher your position, and the greater the responsibility you have to relay to others the harmony you encounter."
1992/10/18
The way is itself the end of the journey
"You’re very neglectful of me these days. You’ve become like a foreigner who needs someone to interpret rather than a son who has right of access. By taking things for granted, your simple walk slips. The path itself is the goal, never forget that; being fully present where you are now is your destination.
"Stress is just another way of helping you grow – of teaching detachment. I beg you to stop drinking: it is a test. You can only grow if you harness the pain-energy of emptiness - by which you yearn into existence your true self.
"Faithfulness!!"
This came at a time I was run ragged with the editorial work on my magazine CataList and management pressures as a publisher
"Stress is just another way of helping you grow – of teaching detachment. I beg you to stop drinking: it is a test. You can only grow if you harness the pain-energy of emptiness - by which you yearn into existence your true self.
"Faithfulness!!"
This came at a time I was run ragged with the editorial work on my magazine CataList and management pressures as a publisher
1992/10/13
You are not your body
"Love. Breathe it in. Let it breathe you in – inspire you. Feel what it is like to be love in the nostrils of the great Being. Imagine the fresh warm air. Imagine the power of a majestic calmness. Imagine the storm of that Being's indignation. Imagine the tenderness of hir peace.
"Be at peace. Don’t strive so. Who you perceive yourSelf to be in the material world is governed by the messages your body gives you about who you are.
"If you have a car its make and style influence your self-image, but it is merely a vehicle for you to travel around in. So it is with your body – spiritually it is no more significant than a car. To admire mere bodies is to be stuck on the bottom rung of reality. Like a car, the body decays – yet the driver never grows old. Lay not up treasures for your selves where rust and moth corrupt and thieves break throu and steal: but lay up for your selves treasure in Heaven."
"Be at peace. Don’t strive so. Who you perceive yourSelf to be in the material world is governed by the messages your body gives you about who you are.
"If you have a car its make and style influence your self-image, but it is merely a vehicle for you to travel around in. So it is with your body – spiritually it is no more significant than a car. To admire mere bodies is to be stuck on the bottom rung of reality. Like a car, the body decays – yet the driver never grows old. Lay not up treasures for your selves where rust and moth corrupt and thieves break throu and steal: but lay up for your selves treasure in Heaven."
1992/10/12
Letting go
"You will never shift from the material plane if you continue to be preoccupied with material things. You’re running along the runway at full speed, but unless you take your courage in both hands and tug the lever at the right moment to lift yourself high into the air you’re going to come to the end of the runway. And then you’re going to have to go all the way round and try it again.
"Let go! All that is involved is letting go of material things. Yes, you may be in the midst of them, you may be involved handling some material project –you may continue to be concerned with it– but you must let it go or it will bind you to the earth. Letting go means allowing the project to succeed or fail on its own terms. Whatever need you feel your work is serving, however much you may feel you’ve been called to it, so long as you strive you’re working in your own strength, and ΓΈ the work will last as long as your own strength lasts.
"If you let go it means allowing the work to take on a pattern and strength of its own. It's that simple. You can’t talk about it until you’re living it. If you’re living it you won’t need to talk about it.
"We don’t mind saying all this stuff hundreds of times over. It's our function to be here to help you develop, and we’re willing for that to happen at whatever pace you can manage. We just want to encourage you to discover true happiness, and not be continually bogged down by problems which you could have avoided if you were airborne.
"Don’t worry, nobody’s reproaching you. You draw to yourself whatever energies you put out. As long as you desire good, what is good for you will come (tho you may not recognise it till afterwards) – at whatever degree of intensity you desire it. What ever you truly desire, you will achieve. So let your ambition be for things of the spirit that will lift you high above the circling clouds to the realm where there is no decay or change to a land of sunlit delight. Yes yes, you see it, you smell the new–mown hay, you are drawn by the sound of laughter – the music and the dancing, all, all are ready. It wants only you. Let go, and float up to the welcome party that is already prepared for you."
"Let go! All that is involved is letting go of material things. Yes, you may be in the midst of them, you may be involved handling some material project –you may continue to be concerned with it– but you must let it go or it will bind you to the earth. Letting go means allowing the project to succeed or fail on its own terms. Whatever need you feel your work is serving, however much you may feel you’ve been called to it, so long as you strive you’re working in your own strength, and ΓΈ the work will last as long as your own strength lasts.
"If you let go it means allowing the work to take on a pattern and strength of its own. It's that simple. You can’t talk about it until you’re living it. If you’re living it you won’t need to talk about it.
"We don’t mind saying all this stuff hundreds of times over. It's our function to be here to help you develop, and we’re willing for that to happen at whatever pace you can manage. We just want to encourage you to discover true happiness, and not be continually bogged down by problems which you could have avoided if you were airborne.
"Don’t worry, nobody’s reproaching you. You draw to yourself whatever energies you put out. As long as you desire good, what is good for you will come (tho you may not recognise it till afterwards) – at whatever degree of intensity you desire it. What ever you truly desire, you will achieve. So let your ambition be for things of the spirit that will lift you high above the circling clouds to the realm where there is no decay or change to a land of sunlit delight. Yes yes, you see it, you smell the new–mown hay, you are drawn by the sound of laughter – the music and the dancing, all, all are ready. It wants only you. Let go, and float up to the welcome party that is already prepared for you."
1992/10/05
Becoming rounded
How can I square the circle?
"What an interesting question. When does a circle cease to be a circle? When does a square become something other? If you described something as a square and its shape altered to that of a rhomboid what would be the ‘true’ way of describing it?
"Those with conventional consciousness describe things by their surface manifestation. In the spiritual life you learn to be guided only by the evolutionary process which drives an object from one manifestation to another.
"You must accept change, metamorphosis, as all nature does. Perhaps you feel you’re being taken apart? Well you probably are – and in your heart you know you wanted change.
"Accept. Underneath are the everlasting arms. Allow yourself to fall.
Instead of a jagged piece of ice become a beautifully formed snowdrop."
"What an interesting question. When does a circle cease to be a circle? When does a square become something other? If you described something as a square and its shape altered to that of a rhomboid what would be the ‘true’ way of describing it?
"Those with conventional consciousness describe things by their surface manifestation. In the spiritual life you learn to be guided only by the evolutionary process which drives an object from one manifestation to another.
"You must accept change, metamorphosis, as all nature does. Perhaps you feel you’re being taken apart? Well you probably are – and in your heart you know you wanted change.
"Accept. Underneath are the everlasting arms. Allow yourself to fall.
Instead of a jagged piece of ice become a beautifully formed snowdrop."
1992/10/02
Don’t become addicted to speed
"Balance your busyness with times of stillness. If you are unavoidably caught up in activity don’t become addicted to the need for speed. Constantly check out and check in. As you were told, you won't achieve solvency until you can learn to float on a raft of praise. Think about it, you struggle keep your head above water because your consciousness, your ego, your survival, impels you to. If you would stop struggling the surface of the water would support you, but you must become lighter. Stop carrying so much baggage! It’s back to pleasing people again, isn’t it – being a hero, picking up their karma?
"Stick to the central issue. Write only what you’re shown. Be, don’t prove yourself. If there’s any proving /testing /tempering to be done, I’ll do it. Do you see me racing around like a madman? No, you find me always at peace, always aware. Be likewise!"
"Stick to the central issue. Write only what you’re shown. Be, don’t prove yourself. If there’s any proving /testing /tempering to be done, I’ll do it. Do you see me racing around like a madman? No, you find me always at peace, always aware. Be likewise!"
1992/09/20
Trust the process
"In moments of doubt you’re at your strongest. You’ll never be more honest with yourself about your feelings. You fear that you(r ego) will fade away, in some way cease to exist.
"But think about it, your fears are social – you might cease to be perceived by certain people on whose attention you depend – you fear exclusion by a social group. That could indeed happen in order to move you to a different position, but would it mean that you had fallen out of the protection of your heavenly protectors? (We talk here of souls who have consciously sought protection.) By no means no-how.
"I reiterate, nothing can happen except for good to those who are on the spiritual path – any more than the geostable relationships between the planets can alter. There are metaphysical laws of psychic forces, similar to those of physics, that hold you(r consciousness /ego /soul) in a flexible yet constant relationship to the God within you(r higher consciousness /otherness /spirit).
"Be merciful to yourself – forgive yourself! Expose your inner wounds to the healing sun. If I were to recommend making a sign, it would say Trust the process in enormous letters! The process is me manifesting in your life, but you are also manifesting in your life! That is the process – the interpenetration of ego & higher consciousness. That way matter, infused with the divine, both transforms and is transformed. As your vision is clarified so you become more conscious of multi-dimensional existence and of your true spiritual heredity.
"How, apart from these apparent crises, could you become familiar with the sub-liminal knowledge you access when 'led into temptation', ie ‘put to the test’ or proved – or learn to develop spiritual energy? We have shown you before that knowledge is never given apart from experience – that is the human way! It is from and within the experience that knowledge develops. Spiritually, your building is designed to be constantly reinforced by internal steel rods after it is built! That may occasionally be a little painful, but that is part of the experience of new birth. Respect your body, treat it as it deserves.
"Do you feel as if you’re trying to single-handedly hold back the tide? This is a dream–tide! Let it sweep over you, submerge your senses in it. It has come to tell you something."
"But think about it, your fears are social – you might cease to be perceived by certain people on whose attention you depend – you fear exclusion by a social group. That could indeed happen in order to move you to a different position, but would it mean that you had fallen out of the protection of your heavenly protectors? (We talk here of souls who have consciously sought protection.) By no means no-how.
"I reiterate, nothing can happen except for good to those who are on the spiritual path – any more than the geostable relationships between the planets can alter. There are metaphysical laws of psychic forces, similar to those of physics, that hold you(r consciousness /ego /soul) in a flexible yet constant relationship to the God within you(r higher consciousness /otherness /spirit).
"Be merciful to yourself – forgive yourself! Expose your inner wounds to the healing sun. If I were to recommend making a sign, it would say Trust the process in enormous letters! The process is me manifesting in your life, but you are also manifesting in your life! That is the process – the interpenetration of ego & higher consciousness. That way matter, infused with the divine, both transforms and is transformed. As your vision is clarified so you become more conscious of multi-dimensional existence and of your true spiritual heredity.
"How, apart from these apparent crises, could you become familiar with the sub-liminal knowledge you access when 'led into temptation', ie ‘put to the test’ or proved – or learn to develop spiritual energy? We have shown you before that knowledge is never given apart from experience – that is the human way! It is from and within the experience that knowledge develops. Spiritually, your building is designed to be constantly reinforced by internal steel rods after it is built! That may occasionally be a little painful, but that is part of the experience of new birth. Respect your body, treat it as it deserves.
"Do you feel as if you’re trying to single-handedly hold back the tide? This is a dream–tide! Let it sweep over you, submerge your senses in it. It has come to tell you something."
1992/09/18
You control your reality - by remaining true to your self
Keep the energy flowing.
Keep the reality you wish to create always in your mind.
Don’t allow your vision to become contaminated by terrestrial energies.
Testing weeds out the dross, and refines the valuable.
Steer straight by keeping your eye on the longterm goal.
Once you lose sight of it the whole landscape changes and becomes confusing.
That is one thing that really is up to you.
If you’re focused we can help you, but if you lose focus we have no way of getting throu to you except when the psychic barrier thins during times of extreme emotion – disaster or joy.
The wilderness is a place for gaining clarity.
You cause yourself to enter it when you need to strip away the accumulated psychic rubbish.
But you don’t have to if you remain constant to what you’re shown.
Trust! Trust yourSelf."
Keep the reality you wish to create always in your mind.
Don’t allow your vision to become contaminated by terrestrial energies.
Testing weeds out the dross, and refines the valuable.
Steer straight by keeping your eye on the longterm goal.
Once you lose sight of it the whole landscape changes and becomes confusing.
That is one thing that really is up to you.
If you’re focused we can help you, but if you lose focus we have no way of getting throu to you except when the psychic barrier thins during times of extreme emotion – disaster or joy.
The wilderness is a place for gaining clarity.
You cause yourself to enter it when you need to strip away the accumulated psychic rubbish.
But you don’t have to if you remain constant to what you’re shown.
Trust! Trust yourSelf."
1992/09/17
Whatever you are is right for right now, but who knows what you can become?
"Really, we could stop communicating directly in this way and just let you get on with it. You already have enough to occupy you. Indeed we sometimes wonder whether what we say may not distract you from what you’ve already been told! But it's the way of the spiritual universe to continue to grow and evolve. What is new doesn’t invalidate what has gone before, nor does it suggest that it was incomplete. What you were before was right for you then, what you are is right for you now, and what you may become will be right for your future – call it growth, or call it an appropriate response to the situation.
"Your current situation offers you the power to grow, seize the moment, don’t let it pass you by ‘ungrown’. Welcome troubles as you welcome joy. And praise, praise, dear heart, always praise! Honouring the supreme being is honouring life – honouring life is honouring your self – honouring your self is honouring the supreme being, whose nature you share."
"Your current situation offers you the power to grow, seize the moment, don’t let it pass you by ‘ungrown’. Welcome troubles as you welcome joy. And praise, praise, dear heart, always praise! Honouring the supreme being is honouring life – honouring life is honouring your self – honouring your self is honouring the supreme being, whose nature you share."
1992/09/16
Tests focus where you need to grow
"What is the purpose of a test? To focus your awareness on a certain area where you need to grow. Whatever emotions arise in the epicentre of the test reflect an immaturity that needs to be developed, in your case the stewardship of resources. (Concentrate, concentrate, don’t diffuse your attention) Write only what is true, don’t dip your pen in the oil of flattery for commercial advantage. Your integrity is your most valuable asset. Follow your inner leadings at all costs. Fear blocks your inner voice: perfect love casts out fear. When you understand that saying you erase time. Don’t fiddle around with inessentials. Go for the heart and don’t deviate.
What more reassurance do you want? Trust the process. Ebenezer – ‘up till now God has blest us’. Praise sets you free. Be as a stone blessing the chisel that shapes it from an unformed rock into an image to be admired for eternity.
What more reassurance do you want? Trust the process. Ebenezer – ‘up till now God has blest us’. Praise sets you free. Be as a stone blessing the chisel that shapes it from an unformed rock into an image to be admired for eternity.
1992/09/13
A message from Sai Baba
O heavenly father, you are the source of all our love, lighten our hearts and teach us to praise your radiance. Sai Baba, help me to understand your role.
"Just as there is no clear division between masculinity and femininity, so there is no sharp dividing line between spirit and flesh. Most people‘s neural circuitry (given physical predisposition of the brain) is the product of their forebears’ preoccupation with worldly matters – physical survival, getting and spending, attracting love, &c. If a person can escape those concerns and realise something of the glorious morning of the spirit world s/he is in a position to conceive a child whose neural circuitry is already to some degree altered from the average. If that person, building from a higher base, develops hir own spiritual abilities hir child is in a position to continue the upward spiral of perception. It is the simple law of eugenics, to which is added the spiritual affinity of souls attracted to each other. (Anyone is always free to reject hir predisposition, but may have to face a negative consequence to hir life-path of not acknowledging hir calling.)
"Let us assume the process has continued for several generations, intentionally or by chance, at last two parents conjoin whose DNA is ready to produce the psycho-physiology into which an advanced being can step to assume an incarnation and so, like the pearl within the oyster, a person who has capacity for spiritual greatness is born. Yet even at this stage, just as an oak throws thousands of acorns to the ground in a single season, so potential ‘lights’ may be dimmed, even extinguished, by unforeseen circumstance or personal weakness.
"Those who emerge throu this sifting process are rightly revered as authentic human spirits. Yet there is still a 'threading' process, involving the purposeful refinement of karma & careful stewardship of gifts (charismata). Only to the individual whose human personality became aware of hir divine mission at or before birth and who thus understood intuitively the need for actions (karmas) to will-less & imbued by direct inspiration can the title Avatar (divine incarnation) be given. And the right to that honour can only be retained by the individual growing, without deviation, in the path shown – in fact, by following utterly and completely the leadings of hir heart.
"The heart is the organ where humans experience the interactions of spirit and materiality. Some incarnating souls, only partially entering the human plane, empower people to stand in the doorway between the worlds, drawing into the physical world unusual manifestations which are everyday occurrences in the non–material world. Those people, such as I am, have access to planes of esoteric knowledge and awareness (so long, only, as we remain faithful) that are as natural to us as swimming and flying. Perhaps you can think back, when you were young all sorts of learning seemed impossibly difficult; as you got older it seemed easy, yet ahead of you lay stuff that was really hard! Yes, well that’s how I experience it. What is abstruse to you is plain to me, and what is abstruse to me in known only to the divine power that draws us all onward in the exciting slalom of existence.
"To anyone who thinks this knowledge may be gained by study, I say throw away every book and start listening to your heart. If you will just allow yourself to be whatever you are at this moment –uncertain, grief-stricken, joyful, harrast, afraid, speedy– if you will allow yourself to be absolutely what you are feeling (yes my friend, I mean you Mr Writer!) you will step throu into a world of possibilities where your heart (ie, love) can rule – then ‘awareness’ comes. At that point you may want to compare your experiences with those of others who have gone before.
"The problem with reading books is that you can hardly avoid clinging to what you’re told, as if it were a normative experience. I want each and every one of you to follow your own path, and to learn to hear your own inner voice (your true guru/teaher); that is strength.
"If you’re reading this, and feeling like a seedling just pushing thru the earth, you must seek nurture, place yourself under a gardener who will regulate the amount of light and water you need. Of course you can do it by yourself, but isn’t it more fun with others? Only to those with a specific calling is it given to hatch out spiritually and then to have to crawl like eels across alien territory to unknown waters for fulfillment.
"Have fun. Be! Don’t strive. That is my message. Thank you for asking."
In the journal where I wrote this I noted that the same day the bank cut off my credit, but later agreed to an extension of my borrowing to fund CataList, the magazine I was publishing at the time. From this point forward this switchback pattern (of dazzling growth in my spirituality, accompanied by tremendous shocks in my materiality!) succeeded ultimately in loosening the stranglehold my ego had over my soul. I say this so that anyone led here may take comfort from the knowledge that we do survive these difficult times in our lives and emerge enriched.
How wisely the Lord's Prayer recommends we ask 'lead us not into temptation' – testing: even tho it is, ultimately, an unavoidable passage on the route to spiritual maturity.
"Just as there is no clear division between masculinity and femininity, so there is no sharp dividing line between spirit and flesh. Most people‘s neural circuitry (given physical predisposition of the brain) is the product of their forebears’ preoccupation with worldly matters – physical survival, getting and spending, attracting love, &c. If a person can escape those concerns and realise something of the glorious morning of the spirit world s/he is in a position to conceive a child whose neural circuitry is already to some degree altered from the average. If that person, building from a higher base, develops hir own spiritual abilities hir child is in a position to continue the upward spiral of perception. It is the simple law of eugenics, to which is added the spiritual affinity of souls attracted to each other. (Anyone is always free to reject hir predisposition, but may have to face a negative consequence to hir life-path of not acknowledging hir calling.)
"Let us assume the process has continued for several generations, intentionally or by chance, at last two parents conjoin whose DNA is ready to produce the psycho-physiology into which an advanced being can step to assume an incarnation and so, like the pearl within the oyster, a person who has capacity for spiritual greatness is born. Yet even at this stage, just as an oak throws thousands of acorns to the ground in a single season, so potential ‘lights’ may be dimmed, even extinguished, by unforeseen circumstance or personal weakness.
"Those who emerge throu this sifting process are rightly revered as authentic human spirits. Yet there is still a 'threading' process, involving the purposeful refinement of karma & careful stewardship of gifts (charismata). Only to the individual whose human personality became aware of hir divine mission at or before birth and who thus understood intuitively the need for actions (karmas) to will-less & imbued by direct inspiration can the title Avatar (divine incarnation) be given. And the right to that honour can only be retained by the individual growing, without deviation, in the path shown – in fact, by following utterly and completely the leadings of hir heart.
"The heart is the organ where humans experience the interactions of spirit and materiality. Some incarnating souls, only partially entering the human plane, empower people to stand in the doorway between the worlds, drawing into the physical world unusual manifestations which are everyday occurrences in the non–material world. Those people, such as I am, have access to planes of esoteric knowledge and awareness (so long, only, as we remain faithful) that are as natural to us as swimming and flying. Perhaps you can think back, when you were young all sorts of learning seemed impossibly difficult; as you got older it seemed easy, yet ahead of you lay stuff that was really hard! Yes, well that’s how I experience it. What is abstruse to you is plain to me, and what is abstruse to me in known only to the divine power that draws us all onward in the exciting slalom of existence.
"To anyone who thinks this knowledge may be gained by study, I say throw away every book and start listening to your heart. If you will just allow yourself to be whatever you are at this moment –uncertain, grief-stricken, joyful, harrast, afraid, speedy– if you will allow yourself to be absolutely what you are feeling (yes my friend, I mean you Mr Writer!) you will step throu into a world of possibilities where your heart (ie, love) can rule – then ‘awareness’ comes. At that point you may want to compare your experiences with those of others who have gone before.
"The problem with reading books is that you can hardly avoid clinging to what you’re told, as if it were a normative experience. I want each and every one of you to follow your own path, and to learn to hear your own inner voice (your true guru/teaher); that is strength.
"If you’re reading this, and feeling like a seedling just pushing thru the earth, you must seek nurture, place yourself under a gardener who will regulate the amount of light and water you need. Of course you can do it by yourself, but isn’t it more fun with others? Only to those with a specific calling is it given to hatch out spiritually and then to have to crawl like eels across alien territory to unknown waters for fulfillment.
"Have fun. Be! Don’t strive. That is my message. Thank you for asking."
In the journal where I wrote this I noted that the same day the bank cut off my credit, but later agreed to an extension of my borrowing to fund CataList, the magazine I was publishing at the time. From this point forward this switchback pattern (of dazzling growth in my spirituality, accompanied by tremendous shocks in my materiality!) succeeded ultimately in loosening the stranglehold my ego had over my soul. I say this so that anyone led here may take comfort from the knowledge that we do survive these difficult times in our lives and emerge enriched.
How wisely the Lord's Prayer recommends we ask 'lead us not into temptation' – testing: even tho it is, ultimately, an unavoidable passage on the route to spiritual maturity.
1992/09/12
I require nothing of you except love
"I require nothing of you except love. Why I say you should live each day at a time, is because if you plan, your brain spins off on its own trajectory. Its not that it's morally wrong, it's just that you thereby lose contact with the wellsprings of your personality. You can’t respond honestly with joy, sadness, uncertainty, or change plan suddenly when new factors enter the picture, because all your planning would go awry – and you ‘can’t afford' that. How happy if you can make your work your source of praise. Don’t let your occupation be a curse or a millstone. Surrender it to me, and let me use it for my purposes. You may be a soldier, or work in the meat trade, it doesn’t matter. No matter what you do, you shouldn’t move until I lead you (if it's already happening you’ll know). I can help you learn better and faster in an adverse situation than in a smooth and favourable one.
"The key to change is praise. PRAISE – honouring your connection with the one-ness! Shout it from the rooftops.
"Praise lightens everything, your burdens, the atmosphere, your friendships. And light spreads light contagiously till everything is a riot of colour and de–light. And from that grows the richest fruit – love. That is how you can recognise the truly enlightened – they love; and spread love around as an apple tree showers apples on the earth. You can't help it, love buds from your branches when it is spring, glistens on your boughs when in flower, aches all over your body when it is summer, and falls into the waiting hands of a hungry world when the harvest–time comes.
"Don’t ask when it'll be time for harvest – it already is. As deep as your roots so high shall be your tree, and all the birds of air shall come and make their habitation therein. BE. Don’t seek. Think of the connecting eyes revolving around the throne: praise > light > love >> praise …"
"The key to change is praise. PRAISE – honouring your connection with the one-ness! Shout it from the rooftops.
"Praise lightens everything, your burdens, the atmosphere, your friendships. And light spreads light contagiously till everything is a riot of colour and de–light. And from that grows the richest fruit – love. That is how you can recognise the truly enlightened – they love; and spread love around as an apple tree showers apples on the earth. You can't help it, love buds from your branches when it is spring, glistens on your boughs when in flower, aches all over your body when it is summer, and falls into the waiting hands of a hungry world when the harvest–time comes.
"Don’t ask when it'll be time for harvest – it already is. As deep as your roots so high shall be your tree, and all the birds of air shall come and make their habitation therein. BE. Don’t seek. Think of the connecting eyes revolving around the throne: praise > light > love >> praise …"
1992/09/09
What are tests actually about?
"It is a test. But like all tests, the subject is not the practical issue in question but that of your learning to discern & rely on my strength, not your own."
1992/09/08
Vision
I am the servant of God:
I do whatever S/He wills:
I focus on realising Hir will for me.
I do whatever S/He wills:
I focus on realising Hir will for me.
"You mustn’t go on seeking to hide behind other things or people.
Acknowledge your self. Ask for your self. Stick at it. Don’t be afraid to walk out on the stage.
Go slower to go faster. Go because you’re empowered."
1992/09/07
The wall
"Don’t beat about the bush, strike out for the heart. When you were working in other mediums you were making allegories, now you’re telling it straight. Leap off the cliff. Trust. The process that brought you to this point isn’t going to abandon you, unless you abandon it.
"Do you see how your perception has changed? At first you saw the learning in terms of light, now you see that the light points towards love. Light enters throu the eyes and illuminates the brain, but love enters throu the heart and enflames the body. When love has consumed the body it is free to fly. Don’t seek explanations, they won't make sense. Just accept the flow. Have fun now. If you can learn to keep your eye on the ball – if you can come throu this we‘ll be more able to use you.
"In sports training you reach a point they call 'the wall'. You seem to reach your physical limits, but you must press on if you're to compete in the Finals. In the psychic world it's the same – only when, on reaching your limit (the bitter end!), you then 'allow' your self to lead can you pass throu the apparent barriers & so enter the glorious liberty of the children of god, the freedom from a 'reality' boundaried by materialistic considerations – the one where you know that your imagination creates the world around you."
This came at a time when I was resuming publication of my magazine without the safety-net of a publisher.
"Do you see how your perception has changed? At first you saw the learning in terms of light, now you see that the light points towards love. Light enters throu the eyes and illuminates the brain, but love enters throu the heart and enflames the body. When love has consumed the body it is free to fly. Don’t seek explanations, they won't make sense. Just accept the flow. Have fun now. If you can learn to keep your eye on the ball – if you can come throu this we‘ll be more able to use you.
"In sports training you reach a point they call 'the wall'. You seem to reach your physical limits, but you must press on if you're to compete in the Finals. In the psychic world it's the same – only when, on reaching your limit (the bitter end!), you then 'allow' your self to lead can you pass throu the apparent barriers & so enter the glorious liberty of the children of god, the freedom from a 'reality' boundaried by materialistic considerations – the one where you know that your imagination creates the world around you."
This came at a time when I was resuming publication of my magazine without the safety-net of a publisher.
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