The paradox of hope vs trust

"Hope is an enemy. Trust is a friend.
"If you hope for something you have expectations, and they can lead you on until you’re stretched between wish and fulfilment. The moment you desire, you feel incomplete till the hoped-for thing arrives. If you trust you’re already content.
"But trust in what? You needn’t trust in anything outside yourself. Within is all you need. Trust in exactly what you are now. Feeble and frail as you may feel – trust your fragility. Above all, don’t trust in what you would like to be. Accept no substitute (as they say) for what you are. Be yourself. Don’t worry if you feel unlovable, I love you. Together we‘re invincible, you and I.
"I need you as much as you need me. Nothing in the cosmos can reach perfection without every single thing aligning harmoniously – that is the extraordinary evolutionary progression which our creator initiated within the heart of matter (/within the matter of the heart), & its organic tendency to coherent form/s.
"Within you is the seed of immortality. Respect its tenderness. Water it. Allow it to root, grow, flower. As it transforms, its heady fragrance will transform your awareness. At times you may have to go for periods without certainty. Don’t be scared of walking in the dark. Allow the great freedom of the night-time world to expand your existing limits till you can see infinity in what had previously seemed oppressively constricting.
"You need to build up your trust to carry you throu those times. Hope alone won't be sufficient. If you desire to be other than you are you will never escape your own limitations: only by fully accepting your inadequacy can you be freed from the need to change. Once you no longer hope for change all possibilities are open to you."

During the period this came to me I was immensely strest as editor /publisher of a monthly journal. I couldn't really assimilate the depth of what it was saying, but in fact the truth /reality of these thoughts manifested in my life in the longer term notwithstanding.
Being at this moment (Jan 2006) on the brink of another publishing enterprise which could tie me down I feel the sweetness of these thoughts all the more poignantly.


The Strength in Doubt

In moments of doubt you're at your strongest.
You'll never be more honest with yourself about your feelings.
Perhaps you fear disintegration -
that you will fade away, in some way cease to exist?

But think about it: your fears are social - you might cease to be welcomed by certain people on whose attention you depend - you fear exclusion by a social group.
Suppose that were to happen in order to move you to a different position, would it mean your heavenly protectors had deserted you? (We refering here to souls who have consciously sought protection.)
No way.
I reiterate, nothing can happen except for good to those who are on the spiritual path - any more than the geostable relationships between the planets can alter. There are fixed and immutable laws that hold you (your consciousness, your ego) in a flexible yet constant relationship to the God within you (higher consciousness).

Be merciful to yourself - forgive yourself!
Expose your inner wounds to the healing sun.
If I were to recommend making a sign, it would say
Trust the process in enormous letters!

The 'process' is the divine will manifesting in your life, but you are also manifesting in your life!
That is the process, the blending of ego consciousness with higher consciousness.
That way matter is infused with the divine, it transforms and is transformed.

As your vision is clarified so you become more conscious of multi-dimensional existence and of the possibilities it offers.
How, apart from experiential 'tests', or 'provings', could you access the subliminal knowledge you find yourself to possess in times of crisis - quite apart from teaching you how to develop spiritual energy?

We have shown you before that knowledge is never given apart from experience - that is the human way! It is from and within the experience that true knowledge develops. Spiritually it is as if the building is reinforced by internal steel rodsafter it is built! That may be a little painful, but that is part of the experience of new birth.

Respect your body, treat it as it deserves.

Do you feel as if you're trying to single-handedly hold back the tide?
This is a dream-tide!
Let it sweep over you, submerge your senses in it.
It has come to tell you something.