What do you want of me?

"I have put my affairs in the hands of humans …
"At your heart, you are me: at my heart I am you. That is what you need to discover to become whole /be healed.

"To discover is to uncover what exists but was previously unknown to you. This knowledge is uniquely personal & requires your complete commitment if you are to realise its power. It's like a PIN-number which only activates one individual's 'card'. The words alone 'At your heart, you are me: at my heart I am you' meaningless, a cliché — unless psycho-activated by your individual will; unless your search for meaning has been so intense that their simplicity is like a cup of cold water in a desert. You no longer care how vulnerable they make you, you are just grateful to have found what you need to renew your life.

"You map every aspect of the material world, yet leave the central goal of existence out of your calculations altogether! You cannot eat it, or make money out of it. It exists as springs exist. Does the natural world charge you to experience it?
"What a privilege to be a musician or a dancer, what great ways of encountering the heart of your otherness – yet how tragic if you restrict this unique point of contact with your true self to mind-numbing 'entertainment'.

"The street where you live is the centre of the universe. Your own front door is the only gateway you need to enter to align your self with the undying life force which is your potential."

All you need is

There are two ways of experiencing god-energy – by aligning with the forces within nature, and by experiencing the inspiration of a parallel reality which transcends our natural senses. Both are equally valid. Ultimately there is no contradiction between them. They are complementary. Indeed both are required if we are to form a clear picture of the being who is the source of all energy. We are both matter and spirit and cannot begin to express our true nature until both are in balance.
We need to align ourselves with the rootedness of an immobile life-form if we are to understand the geographical, ethnic & cultural root stock from which we've grown. Yet this alone cannot tell us everything about who/what we are called to become. Spirit is as-it-were the sun that provides the energy for us to grow towards our true nature, which is to be in harmony with both created matter and its spiritual foundations.
If we see that the source of all life is a profound yet ever-evolving harmony that progresses by resolving /integrating dissonance then we can understand how the forces we call evolution and love are not separate but synonymous.
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Help is at hand

"If you're stuck in a hole don't churn your feet in the mud - call for the air rescue service, your angel support team. They're real, ready and more than willing. But like human rescue workers they need to be called into action."

Not going mental

"To be locked into your mind is to be stuck on the earth plane.
"Generosity, vision, love, eco-wisdom, all these come from spirit – but they're also part of nature, indivisible aspects of creation.
"Open up, lighten up, release … you really don't have to know all the answers!"

What purpose do our perpetual financial crises serve?

"To keep you in touch with yourself, and keep you humble & grounded.

"As you have to keep in prayerful contact so you charge your spiritual batteries - that's a good bargain, isn't it? And don't you enjoy seeing constant miracles?

"But there's something else you can do to change the vibrations around you - start being your own best friend! Debts are a challenge to find more ways to give love unselfishly. They arise from possessiveness. Share more – give more – be simpler.

"Be realistic – expect miracles – but remember, miracles give you what you need not what want."

Trust the process

"If you can't think what to do, then praise – praise s/he who is the source of all life – s/he who makes hirself known in the natural world – s/he whom we sense in the system design of all life forms. S/he who is the evolutionary power of love.
"Trust, even in times of dryness. Trust not because you understand what's happening, but trust that you are understood and that your needs are being met as you evolve into the new being for whom these experiences are preparing you.
"Does the baby know what is happening as it being born? No. Keep praising to keep your energy high & trust the process. It is flawless in design."

A sacred place is a high place

"The beauty of your ideas is beyond price. Keep them where they belong, don't start trying to bring them down to make them 'fit' or you will lose your crown."

Be Open - Be Lucky

"You can only be open.
"You must trust me to know what's best. You'd so much like to plan your own life - but what do you really know? You only have human eyes, you cant see how things need to fit together. That's why I need you to be open.
"Dont assume any scenario - just be open.

"This is the essence of being lucky: the ability to turn on a sixpence. It doesnt mean being shalllow or flighty, it means being flexible. Remember, flexibility always wins over rigidity."

Love & Joy

"Let us love and bring joy. This is how we can tell the difference between profound love and the shallow counterfeit that goes by the same name. With the former there is no sting in the tail, only opern-heartedness.
"Does your love lead you to open-heartedness?"

Dragonflies

Sitting by the brook watching the butterflies darting about on the warm earth, I thought back to the previous evening when focussing on Sai Baba produced an immediate cessation of my virulent head cold. I was given to understand that any saint or holy emissary could be summoned by quiet focus – which is to say that we can attune ourselves to a specific vibration.
At that moment a dragonfly skimmed up the open patch of stream between the dense undergrowth. I readied my camera for its return – but instead a second dragonfly flew up in the same direction. This made me reflect how the various insects are all like the spiritual vibrations that surround us – we have to study their behaviour patterns if we want to receive them.
One or other dragonfly made half a dozen more sorties while I sat there - whether I was attuned enough to get a decent shot, only subsequent inspection will reveal.

Anghiari, near Arezzo, Italy

Where should we be – & how do we know when we're there?

There are times when everything clicks into place. We all have them, those effortless days.
If you consider the circumstances when it last happened, you'll probably find two things:
1) You were carefree and thus full of energy:
2) You were in tune with what was going on.
In a word, you were lucky.

We see therefore that luck arises from attunement, albeit unconsciously, betwen our inner & outer reality/ies. In other words, one unified reality exists at such moments.
Perhaps, having had this insight, we have tried to rercreate a carefree mood – yet found the magic mytseriously absent. Why? Because experience is like a moving water – even when it flows in the same course it is now the product of different dynamics to what it was then. One thing we can all attest to is that any exercise of will or intention is generally inimical to the fragile conditions which luck demands.
An important step therefore to understanding where the right spot is for us, is to accept that there is never a way back to a longed-for state of feeling – only a way forward to a situation where we may possible reencounter it in a new form. This is particularly true of relationships.

The question gets a whole lot more challenging if I explore luck in relation to my spiritual dynamic. Nearly every spiritual path teaches that in order to make progress I must exercise my will to choose one direction in preference to the millions of others. The more actively I follow this advice, the more I am likely to negate the carefree conditions luck demands.
And here the conundrums multiply.
Can I pursue my spiritual path wholeheartedly and yet remain open to contradictory experiences?
Should I just go with the flow rather than hold to any one direction?
How can I create favourable conditions for magic /luck?

There is no single answer – everyone's different. There's no single route to any spiritual destination. (The distorting effect of religions is to articulate a certain note and address only those people whom that vibration manifests, creating the effect of marginalising anyonelse.) But there is an underlying spiritual truth – balance.
We are driven by impulse & conditioning to race for ladders, but it is often the snakes that of adversity that make the best teachers. The Christian concept that truth is a revelation that comes from a book has taught us to see knowledge as something outside ourselves - but this is an illusion, as the great mystics have repeatedly reminded us.

The snake of adversity on which we have unhappily landed may in fact be -to the unconscious- the snake of healing wisdom. If you consider the caduceus: the writhing snake takes us throu a series of wild arcs as we veer erratically in our initial search for identity, but happily each is balanced with its twin. As we ascend the snakes of awareness the swings are less wild and the crossing points more frequent, until we see that the two paths are in fact one.
At this point, perhaps, we see that the buffeting of fate was designed to bring us to a natural feeling of centredness - not a prescribed place, nor yet an intellectually determined one, but one where the native energy or ’fluence of the godhead can use us as it sees fit.

Praise works

"Praise is the medium for drawing your spirit up to heaven to receive blessing. It is the highest form of affirmation. You should always employ it in your worship and meditation. Constantly reopen yourself to the lightness and freshness of spirit, especially after the heaviness caused by illness."

Being & Becoming

"No matter how far you travel, no matter how grand your position, it always comes back to this … you and me, you and your self – your true heart which is me, the eternal truth, the entire power of the universe indwelling each human.
Truly, you are Gods, each of you is God. You only strive to have power over others if you have not realised this. For in fact you do have power over others, each of you has power over everybody.
You doubt this? Look at the power of a psychotic gunman to strike fear into the hearts of people all over the globe. Look at the power of a spiritual figure to influence and uplift people during and after hir life. Your influence on others will match the degree of your abandonment to the presiding principle of your life – be it towards spiritual evolution or towards the gratification of physical appetites. That is elementary metaphysics.
Since, for the purpose of earthly life, your physical body is the sheath guarding the spiritual within, it (and the messages it gives) are like a curtain or cloth preventing light falling too strongly on a photo-sensitive conductor. Should that occur prematurely (for whatever reason or accident ) it can result in the person’s inner self-godhead being burned, or even burned out.
What is supposed to happen, except in people where accelerated development is karmically appropriate, is that as the strength of the inner light grows ever brighter so not only does it penetrate the cloth -because the fabric decays with age- but also because, with concentration and commitment, the light frequencies themselves can be extended beyond the normal range of human perception until it is capable of creating the equivalent of ultra-violet or infra-red impressions – even on people to whom such spectra are not visible. Spiritual adepts will recognise such qualities according to the measure of their own enlightenment.
So you see, you don’t need Power because you have power. One can be grasped and shaken but falls apart at a touch – the other is slow to grow (in the initial stages) but is indestructible because it is an atomic constituent of the universe. In this respect you are like coral: you have individuality but you only realise its true magnificence by allowing yourself to be formed into a great metaphysical structure in support of other life-forms.
‘Why me? Why here? Why now?’ you may say. I reply ‘Why not you, here, now? And if not who, where, when?’ Is this not the true purpose of existence, being matter to become one with spirit, being spirit to become one with matter. Being, and yet being human. That is godhead."
> This is the last the last in the collection of inner messages which I received between 1991-7 which I have uploaded here during 2005/6. Why? I think perhaps because by that time I had managed to integrate more of the percepts more fully into my life & thus a similar level of 'inspiration' began to be more realised in my composition & poetry.

Listen - always listen

"Any pen will do. Writing is an act of will but also an act of trust. Your listening channel has become clogged with weeds. It needs dredging and clearing.
This is the call to move to a higher level. You no longer need to plan and scheme – with the energy you have evolved, things will work, your debts will reduce."

> 7 June 2006. By 1996 we were installed in our new house & going throu a periodic crisis. I must just have begun piano teaching, which has become such a large part of my life since.

Grist to the mill

"Anything you do in the world has no value to you beyond its capacity to transform you. It may have merit but for you its only function is as a mechanism by which to know yourself. Therefore ‘be ye not conformed to this world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.’"

Stay close to your flame

"Do you see how wise you are when you allow yourself to be guided by your inner light?
"No matter how unpromising the situation, quieten your outer senses and tune in to your inner guidance. The still flame of the spirit burning within your heart powers the whole thinking/walking/eating/love-making animal that is You, as you appear in the world. But that still flame is fuelled by the divine organic evolutionary process of which physical matter and metaphysical anti-matter are equally part. (Since will precedes realisation the meta-physical plane is of even greater significance than the physical, for it is there that intentions are created which can assume and one of a number of physical forms when they’re implemented.)
"The central point is you are your own health and your own sickness. If you stay close to that still flame of the spirit within you you will guided by your inner wisdom, if you deviate from that meta-physical awareness you’ll be led astray by the pull of the culture surrounding you or by the spinning wheel of your brain.
"Quiet, heart-grounded is best and truest, and timelessly enduring because timelessly true."

Your vibration attracts like minds

"Once no requirement for sanctification existed. Before humans started to invent things they had no power to differentiate themselves from other life-forms. But once humans began to use tools as a means of willing events into existence, purity of motive began to be important. Prior to that life-forms had no intention beyond life itself.
"At this stage will became a part of the world’s evolutionary path (as it had always been implicitly). Will is necessarily free will, and therefore exists at more evolved psychological level than instinct which follows a path without knowing why. So you can see that for anyone who desires to achieve self-knowledge(=one-pointedness=personal destiny) sanctification of intention is a prerequisite. By sanctification I mean deep inner examination, and a conscious willing toward ‘self-knowledge=one-pointedness=personal destiny’. The strength/depth of that conscious willing puts you in touch on an inner plane (call it etheric or ESP if you will) with others who will the same.
"That is why it is so important to allow the ‘sanctification’ (however you conceive it) to be a centring down, a neutralising of emotion. If you carry the emotions of your conscious mind into that process you continue to assert your individuality. By placing your self at the disposal of ‘self-knowledge=one-pointedness=personal destiny’ you are inviting it to create ‘elective tribes’ - that is, tribes of humans fully committed to the conscious real-isation of their humanity – very different from the herd instincts of the less evolved.
"The emergence into spiritual tribes (religions) is an intermediate stage; but eventually the attachment to materially-located awareness will give way completely to psychically-sustained awareness – which is what true knowledge is, always was; as is destined to be more widely perceived.
"In this process, sanctification of will must impart itself to what we create and our material environment. This will permit/involve /cause the transmutation of matter into spirit; and thus the regeneration of the earth planet in the way foreseen by so many visionaries and prophets."

The obligations of an intellectual

"If you are an intellectual then you alone of all creation have the power to alter your moral and physical environment – to imagine and bring into being a different reality. This gives you unique power to liberate or to enslave.
"Choose to set people free – don’t dictate their responses – allow them to reject you – that alone is the path of light. Following what feels right is its own reward – a sense of intunity, of liberation, of riding the wave of destiny."

You are cared for

"You can so easily get lost in your own schemes and tell yourself they’re for me, but I know best & I guide those who will allow me in the paths that are best for them and best for the company of faith."

> Night after Enchanter II (vocal improv ensemble) first performance

Recognising & integrating the highest source

"You must let in the Christ energy."
> How can I recognise it?
"It doesn’t grab or seek to possess. It enlightens those seeking wisdom and encourages the faint-hearted. It seeks the lowest, the energy of the fallen, raising and transforming them in a way those not touched by the Spirit can barely recognise."