Falling is how you reach your natural depth

"If you will accept our timing we promise you the realisation of your heart’s deepest dreams. If you panic and skeeter to the surface now, then this will be as deep as you get. Don't you want the whole number? You can't know how things are designed to fit together – it's in order to discover & align yourself with that higher purpose that that you have committed yourself to this process. Trust it – now, as never before. There are helpers whose vibrations surround you, and which you can access if you will slow down sufficiently. Slowing /falling feels scary – but it's an essential phase in the process. It could take years, but we promise you one thing: the results will be worth it. They'll so far exceed everything you had in the past you'll look back & wonder how you stood your former life for so long! The pace of your inward opening is controlled subconsciously by your willingness to be open."

Just one step at a time

"Don’t run. A step at a time will do nicely."

Gyrostabilization

"You are never so far up or so far down as you perceive.
Balance works vertically as well as horizontally.
BE – I/we can never repeat that too often. BE, allow, flow.
‘Whatever lies under thy hand to do, do it with all thy might.’"

Grace

> In every way I seem to be stuck, spiritually, financially.

"Look back over your life. How has grace come to you? It cannot be commanded."

> How can I experience Divine Grace, I am in despair.

"Divine Grace is all around you. Allow it to come to you – be sure not to repel it throu your own feelings of unworthiness. That is why we repeatedly urge you simply to allow. If you are on a sandbank, wait for the tide, struggling will do no good.
Remember, all desire the light – even those with impaired vision.
Spread outwards what you hope to receive. Create an environment that feels like what you want. Put love at the heart. Hold firm to your vision and use your prayer to me like a rudder to steer you with the current."

You are a co-creator of the universe

"Spread outwards what you hope to receive. Create an environment that feels like what you want. Put love at the heart. Hold firm to your vision and use your prayer to me like a rudder to steer you throu the current.
Trust that the path by which you are led is the only one that goes to the place you want to get to. But, you must constantly energise and reenergise that reality. That is your right and your privilege as a co-creator of the universe."

Dream Prayer 1

In darkness is the light.

In the unseen, the form of what is to be.
Love blooms in a stony wasteland as well as in a garden -
So God fills every heart held hollow for hir.

In fear, the gift to know your self.
In pain, an infinite resource of power.
Sorrow colours the night sky with a rainbow
since the dream-time world defines every waking action.

O you, my helper in the light,
draw me from the disharmony of illusion
to the consonance of a reality that
empowers my own existence as it enables others.

Sai Baba

> Help, Sai Baba, help! I want to come to see you, but I can't unless you fund me.

"Be at peace. Allow. Follow."

> mirabile dictu, I was funded to visit Sai Baba by the BBC the following year!

Words & meanings

"An airport in no way represents the totality of a city or country. It is a convenient entry point, a place where you touch down. Only upon leaving it can you discover what the country you’re visiting is really like. Words bear the same relationship to religious understanding – they’re a fine entry point but soon you must leave them and voyage into the unknown, trusting the maps you have acquired. Not all maps are perfectly accurate, but nobody bothers to make one that is hopelessly wrong. You can, indeed must, trust what others have recorded about the routes you can follow – otherwise you can easily get lost and have to retrace your steps to begin all over again. But to see words as synonymous with meaning is like not seeing the 90% of an iceberg beneath the surface of the water."

Love changes the landscape

"When you can do nothing else, concentrate on love. Try -even when it’s hard- to realise you are surrounded by love. Use your energy to send out love as much as possible, especially to those you imagine are opposed to you. Do not look for the current situation to be dramatically altered by your love (tho it might be) but expect that love, if applied diligently, will create a new situation where the constraints that currently bind you will be loosed."

Straining

"You cannot fall because there is no downwards in the spiritual life – just as you cannot rise because there is no upwards. Neither can you grow or diminish. You are entire.
Progress derives from resolution, from resolving contradictions in your personality.
As you do so you slip throu the nets that restrict those enmeshed in coarseness or anger.
This straining process ultimately releases you from all earthiness into a being of the purest spirit.
That is your reward for all the trials, that is what your testing is for."

Hurry = Worry

A river takes millennia to carve its course – a tree several hundred years – you have taken decades to reach where you are now. Hurry = worry. Whatever is made well is made slowly.

Trust is the natural order

"The river doesn’t need to know it is traveling to the ocean. It is simply 'doing what comes naturally'. It can do no other – it 'trusts' its guidance, gravity. The same trust upholds you. The river cannot choose, it is not in its nature, but you can choose – either to follow the natural contours of your life, the flow towards the ocean which is the immergence of your ego in the cosmic unity, or you can strive to impose your own plans on your life. God respects both, but one outlasts the other by millennia. Use trust as your guide and yardstick as you slowly assume focus on this great journey."

Atma - Brahma

"We, the Gods, surround you. If you would understand us, understand your self. You are different from us in only one respect – you have a body.
"Let us explain: Perhaps you have seen the letter A on a screen with the image repeated so it appears to stretch three-dimensionally in space? If you are the foreground A (the A that you see first) we are the intermediate AAs which diminish from your perspective until they reach infinity.
"Now think of it the other way round. Imagine you are looking from infinity towards your self. Infinity is no longer minuscule. You now see the function of the intervening hierarchy of AAs connecting what you previously thought remote to the human perspective.
"Infinity (the ever-evolving Godhead, Brahma) and manifestation (you, Atma) hang together as easily as either end of an expandable decoration. But neither end would make sense were it not for the middle which connects them, just as they are the logical extension of the middle. In ‘the real world’, that is the unseen world, the intervening links are necessary to step down the blazing infinity of power which fuels the universe to levels that can be handled by you. Electricity is still electricity, whether calculated in gigawatts at a power station or microwatts in a torch.
"If you want to understand further, relax your mind – Imagine you are in your favourite bit of countryside on a beautiful day after a good lunch – You are content. Under these circumstances your mind is free to explore anything without needing to know. Knowledge for its own sake is almost always harmful. In the spiritual life, experience /undergoing precedes revelation."

Be love(d)

"I am your God – you shall have no other Gods but me. Stop fretting. Allow your stillness to manifest its reward. Be in a state of constancy and prayer. You know – that is your power. Manifest it with quiet determination. We want you to succeed. Please simply accept and trust.
Don’t duck. The prize is in the severity of the test. Bear it without flinching. The discomfort is temporary, the reward everlasting. The purpose is to test and develop your stamina – if you call the test off by not enduring, your stamina won't increase. There is a purpose – trust.
Be love. You are love in the world – whom if not you?
Don’t worry about publishing these thoughts. Be them, that is the best form of publication.
You are infinitely precious in the great scheme. Please believe this and allow the process of wholing to complete itself."

> During this time, after the collapse of my magazine, I gave myself to composition.

Listen!

"Obey – don’t plan!
Err on the side of generosity.
Seek to understand the spiritual topography of the experiences you pass throu.
Be alert for signs, but interpret them intuitively not intellectually."

Trust your self

"Can you stop planning – dare you stop planning – and just be open?
We mean only good. Above all, trust – trust your self."

Why *not* be simple?

"So you see, even when you’ve done all your planning and all your clever dodges it still comes back to the simplest things. So why not be simple in the first place?"

Where love & trust rule there is no inadequacy

"Fear is the product of inadequacy. Where love and trust rule there is no inadequacy."

Holiness becomes you

"Holiness (intunity) becomes you – wear it like a robe of light and noone can harm you."

You are forgiven

"I am encircled by love –
led onward by love –
sustained by love.
Love is my present
and my goal.

Be still O soul – listen to the waves washing against the shores of your heart.
If in the world you have karma to undergo, in the eternal present you are cleared of all sin.
In your heart neither Jesus nor Buddha nor Sai nor any aspect of God condemns you – you are free – acknowledge that freedom and let it manifest in your life."