You're worth it!

"Conviction (faith) only grows as you test it. If you didn’t trust yourself to record these thoughts you would never have reached the stage of development you have now. Assessment has a proper place in consolidating a plan, but only action validates. This isn’t to say that action alone validates, for if the assessment has been inadequate it may well invalidate. There is a time for gathering, and a time for going. You must respect your deepest instincts to ‘divide the times’ correctly.
"Never feel you must ‘prove’ anything — certainly not to yourself, and least of all to others. The need to ‘prove’/witness/demonstrate is a sign of deep internal doubt which, by projecting onto others, you attempt to heal within yourself. What you are is always more important than what you say. If you concentrate on your own be-ing, there will come a time when the goodness that is within you will well up and overflow. At that time, when all striving has ceased, it may be appropriate for you to testify publicly. But never be concerned or feel under an obligation.

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"Need and want are emotions closely related to anger. Both imply not having. But the reality is that you have. Even if you don’t have food you have life. Begin by congratulating yourself for being alive, for surviving up to this hour. Then move slowly outwards in self-congratulation from the minimum experience that you can truthfully acknowledge. Gradually draw other people/events/things into your circle of praise. Hold it if you find yourself feeling uncomfortable or getting unrealistic.
"Just stay where you are and hold the feeling — feel at home, walk around in it, survey your self-awareness with pride.

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"You see, you haven’t been congratulating yourself you’ve been making contact with your spirit — something larger than yourself, an element that is always a part of your awareness, however hard your misery or negative self-image may attempt to block it off. In your deepest heart you know youre fully divine, and you know that’s why you’ve survived up to now — it isn’t an accident! If you live this life you begin to grow and blossom and flourish with roots that go down far below the cracks in the pavement where you sit.
"Instead of being blinded by the mirror of negative self-image that your anger has created look inward to see beyond. Free yourself from the self-lacerating emotions that arise perhaps out of your failure to find a niche amongst the other dough-heads and faceless consumers who surround their guilt and doubts with ever more acquisition. That was never meant to be your path. Feel your goodness. Don’t beg for love from people who have none to spare. Start by loving yourself: acknowledge, accept whatever you can. Don’t despise yourself if it seems microscopic. Use the microscope to magnify what little you find to love until it fills the whole screen!
"Do you have feeling of anger towards your parents for their betrayal? Even if they didn’t do what they could, they did what they were able to. There are no perfect parents. You’re all on this planet to progress, to shake off bad karma. They may’ve had more than you know about.
Don’t say ‘they should never have had me’. You chose to be born, and you chose to be born to them — so that you could learn to overcome the very emotions that now seem to be crucifying you. And you’ll only do that by begining to love and accept yourself. It's all the universe asks of you. Can you really bear not to study your own happiness and fulfilment? Must you grind on in misery? Worse, could you really face having to come back and do it all over again just because you were so determined to spend this existence in abjection?
"So, start now by congratulating yourself for being alive, for surviving up to this hour. Then, as you feel comfortable, move outwards in self-affirmation from the minimum experience that you can truthfully acknowledge. Gradually draw more people/events/things into your circle of praise. Stop if you feel unreality entering. Just stay there and hold the feeling — feel at home, walk around in it, survey your self-awareness with pride.