1991/05/26

Who am 'I'?

"The ego can’t listen, it has no ears, it is a mouth shouting ‘I, I, I,’ all the time. Its major fear is that it doesn’t (/can't) exist unless it is acknowledged. But is the personality only the ego? No, the ego is like a demanding infant who monopolises attention by its apparent need.
"You can't integrate your personality without including the spiritual dimension. Listening to recorded music that has no ambient acoustic is unpleasant because it deprives listeners of the richness and harmonic interaction that are associated with a ‘large’ sound. And largeness here has a definite spiritual connotation.
"Like a vocalist, the ego demands to be as close to the microphone as possible, but if it moves too close then the ambient dimension is crowded out and the result is ‘unbalanced’ unless its replaced by sound processing.
"A performer must study to find an internal point of balance between the work, hir own personality, and the expectation of others. Only when these 3 factors have achieved their own relationship will the transcendent dimension manifest itself. Comedians understand this better than anyone, humour cant exist in a vacuum.
"What is most truly within you is most truly outwith you. At the heart of the ego lies non-ego, but even this experience is circular not 2 dimensional, for altho one is the mirror image of the other it is not in opposition to it. There is no duality between the 2 states. Both are always present even when 1 is apparently excluded. And at a certain point either becomes the other regardless of intention."

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